Synopsis:
My uncle abused me.
I was 10 years old when it started.
At 13 he told me I was no longer wanted because I had started to develop.
At 16 I was ready to kill him.
Today, I’m broken.
Today, I only breathe to survive.
My name’s Sergeant Major Ryan Jenkins and today, I’m ready to tell you my story.
“Master would flog me if I did, she won’t be happy when I tell her what happened here.”
“Master?”
“Stella.”
Oh, Master.
Excerpt:
I startle awake as I leap off the bed and sprawl on the floor.
“Ry!” Mason yells from the other side of the door. I jump up off the floor and swing the bedroom door open.
“You scared the shit out of me, Mason.” I run my hand over my eyes and face trying to wake up. “What do you want, man?” But I’m met with silence. When I look over at Mase, he’s staring at my body. He’s mouth’s open and his eyes are so wide. He rakes his stare down my body, then back up again. He lifts an eyebrow as he ogles me. I look down and notice I’m completely naked. I fell asleep on my bed with just the towel wrapped around me and he scared me with his bashing that now I’m standing before him totally exposed.
He’s not moving away, and neither am I.
“Mason.” I lower my voice as he looks up at me and just stares.
He can see straight through me, totally bare and open, for him to see all my secrets.
“We need to leave in an hour,” Mase says as he takes a step closer to me.
I can feel his heat, and my body instantly reacts to him.
Don’t be a coward Ryan, just reach out and touch him.
His brown eyes turn from a hard brown into a molten chocolate as we stand a mere step apart from each other.
Our breathing is labored and rapid.
Mason reaches forward and brings his hand up to my chest, but before he touches me, his demeanor changes and he retracts it, dropping it beside his body.
“I can’t,” he whispers as he turns away from me and goes into his bedroom.
My head spins as I close my door and stand completely ashamed in my room.
He doesn’t want me.
Why would he?
I’m broken.
My Review:
Yes, Master is the first work of author Margaret McHeyzer’s that I have read and has definitely left an impression on me. Emotional, heartwrenching, intense and touching, this book is certainly not for everyone but I imagine those who have read it feel the same way…you can’t help but love Ryan and want desperately for him to get his happy ending.
By all outward appearances, Ryan Jenkins has tried to make the best of the life he has been given. To say it’s been hard would be a gross understatement. You see, Ryan had been sexually molested by his uncle from the time he was ten until he turned thirteen. As if that wasn’t bad enough, his uncle at times had invited friends to join in. Ryan’s teen years ended with his mother sending him away to the Army and that ended up being the best thing for him…..until now, when even that couldn’t help him anymore. The nightmares were back. The vial and unpleasant memories were back. Feelings of confusion and uncertainty threaten to take Ryan down…for good. Things start to chance when his best friend, Mason, comes to visit and he is introduced to a lifestyle he never would have imagined could help take control of his inner demons and darkest secrets. It was somewhat shocking finding out his best friend was into the world of BDSM, but what was even more shocking to Ryan was his curiosity into that world as well as his curiosity toward the beautiful blond Domme commanding Mason. Is it possible Ryan may have found a way to cope with his heinous past in BDSM? God, he hoped so….there wasn’t anywhere else to turn at this point.
To say that this novel was graphic and heartbreaking would be putting it mildly. Again, I will repeat that this book will not be for everyone. Don’t get me wrong, because I really did enjoy this book. Ryan’s story was so touching and I just kept thinking that I’m sure there are so many similar and very real stories out there like Ryan’s and that’s what kept me reading. I was pulling for him from the very beginning. After a failed marriage, a horrific childhood, and the struggle just to live day to day, I wanting nothing more than for Ryan to find some sort of peace and happiness. Luckily, his best friend Mason comes to visit at a most dire time and unknowingly helps Ryan. He had never told anyone of his darkest years and when he was finally able to open up, and take a chance with Mason and his Domme, it was an immeasurable leap in the right direction. There were many moments that had me crying and there were many moments that had me wondering if Ryan could ever move past his abuse. I won’t give anything away, but I will say that the ending had me elated. This story really held a message of hope and the possibility to heal was right around the corner.
Thank you, Margaret, for one hell of an emotional and touching read.
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I don’t do ‘normal’.
I’ve found that the more I write, the more I like being different to other authors. I write in first person, and I love to challenge a reader.
I take the normal and switch it around.
For me, I really enjoy getting a reaction from a reader. So if I can evoke an emotion (regardless of if it’s the emotion the reader wants) then I figure that I’ve done my job as an author I want to be.
I really quite revel in taking people out of their comfort zones and pushing them to read something different.
My genre of writing is, well quite frankly, where ever my mind goes. I won’t label myself because I don’t like sticking to one genre.
My goal with writing is just to take people away from whatever is going on in their lives, even if it’s only for a split second.
I’m a go with the flow sort of person and don’t really take a course of action to get where I am going. I live in the moment and don’t usually worry about tomorrow because whatever life is due to bring me, I’ll be happy to accept.
I love my family and friends and will help anyway I can if someone needs it. I really don’t like people that are nasty just because they can be, I don’t believe that’s necessary, I mean life’s hard enough as it is!
I hope you enjoy my books, I’ve had a hoot writing them. There’s more to come…..
Til next time.
M xx
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